. . . talk to you guys for a bit to sort out some thoughts in my head. I know, I know – you are wondering “where has SHE been?” And honestly, I have every intention on telling you with my soft recalibrated re-launch of this blog which is scheduled (on my calendar) to happen at some point between Sept 17th and Oct 1st. I have it all planned and sorted out – how to break it down and ease back into the flow of things. But . . . things are moving fast and I needed to touch those of you who dream free with me.
Within the past week alone, I’ve landed a contract for my freelance commercial writing business with a MAJOR corporation and I have been asked to “step out of [my] self-imposed retirement” in the spoken word arena for an event next month. The same kind of event where I’m expected to vend my materials, market myself and Dream Free or Die!℠ All this while working on rebooting this space and writing a path to my next level. These amazing opportunities have presented themselves to me full on . . . and I’m prepared for nothing. I had to clear my schedule outside of my day job to work the contract. I have no tangible materials to vend. My marketing materials supply is thin and needs re-ordering. I have not set foot in front of a mic in about 14 years or so and I’m scared. My nerves and lack of having been in touch with my creative side and arts environment to the degree that I have needed to be over the years has me a little anxious. I feel out of shape. Almost (dare I say it) as if I don’t fit in that place anymore.
But running, turning away, making any excuse or shutting down is NOT an option. I must move forward. It’s on!
Yet still . . . I need your feedback and thoughts. Talk to me. Each of your words and thoughts will be used to calm any scattered nerves threatening to take over. I need your motivation coupled with mine to propel me, just so, over the edge. Dream free or die, Baby. Dream free or die . . .
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Boy do I know how you feel step. I was called into ministry at a time when I didn’t think that I was ready (based on self imposed standards rooted in comparision which is essentially pride) or worthy. People like us can sometimes be our own worst critics because we want to be perfect. Its more important to be at REST knowing that it is the God in us that must produce the fruit in our lives if it’s our fruit it won’t remain anyway. Fake fruit costs more than real fruit and you can’t even eat it. So let the fruit what you produce come from a place of knowing that WHO is more important than the WHAT. You are a Human Being not a Human Doing. Focus on being who you are and let what you produce come from knowing that you qualify and are worthy not because of what you do or don’t do. Not because of what you have or don’t have but because of who you are and whose you are!
Yes!!!! Yes, Shawn! Exactly and thank YOU! Words downloaded into my daily self understanding!
Steph…I am proud of you. Remember BSU and all that we went through. If I know nothing else about you is your fear of nothing in the end. I am so proud of you and you haven’t begun or finished yet. YOUR WILL IS GOD’S WILL…YOUR DRIVE IS GOD’S DRIVE. It is and has always been in you. Keep your head up. I love you girl. Your sis 4 life!
Shannon! Thank you so much!!! I needed to hear that from my sis 4 life!!!
Follow your heart…it is your life line. I believe in you and though you may feel anxious its just your soul being stretched out…it’s a little uncomfortable, but its good for you. You may need to renovate your arena before you can step into it. Maybe you can make your surroundings more condusive to you so you can get more comfortable. Then the more time you stand and walk around this place it will feel like home. And home is where your heart is right 🙂 You got this Stephanie…it’s yours…own it. Your passion is the energy that will jump start this next chapter of your life. I see hindrances slowly falling down your back so you will one day walk completely in your destiny. I believe in you!!
Thank you SO much!!! There are battles almost daily – internal and external. Succeeding each day in making it to the next without giving up is key for me. Thanks so much for your inspiration!